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Tuesday, March 5, 2013

2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.


  1. I'm afraid of the bathroom.  More specifically, afraid of the bathroom in the dark.  No other rooms in my house am I afraid of the dark.  The bathroom I am.  When I was 14 or something, I went to camp.  A few of the girls and I were playing Bloody Mary, and one of them pretended that she was actually possessed.  Talk about freaky shit.  Now, I cannot be in a bathroom with the light off and door closed.  My husband will turn the light off when I'm in the shower if he's mad at me or if he thinks he's funny.
  2. I'm afraid I'm going to lose my son.  As he gets older (he's 8 now), it's hard to maintain that really close bond that we've always had.  I just find myself getting more and more fearful that he's not going to need me anymore, and not going to want to be around me anymore.  I know I shouldn't be afraid of it, because we are so close, but considering the relationship I have with my parents, it's a genuine fear that I have.
  3. I am afraid of crowded places.  I call myself "people clausterphobic", which is silly, really.  But with the past I've had, and how I've been bullied, picked on, abused, and everything, it's really not that difficult to understand.  I'm getting over this fear though, and I'm finally realizing that not everyone in the room is looking at me and thinking, "Hey, look at that fat chick. She's gross."  I've finally gained some self-esteem (it helps that I've recently cleaned up my so-called Friends list on Facebook) and I'm not so afraid to be me.

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