Stuff and things

It's been a long time since I've thought about killing myself.

Yeah, it's a sensitive topic. But be honest - how many of us have thought of it?

I used to drive down 11th Street, towards to water plant, and just think about not stopping... Just keep driving. Press on the gas, and keep going... Straight into the building. Would I die? Would I just hurt myself? What would happen?

For the first time in a long time, tonight, I thought about it. What would happen if I just kept going? Drive into oncoming traffic? Run into a building? Would I die? Would I just hurt myself?

I know I would never do it. I'm not a danger or anything. I love my boy too much.

But I wonder, if it weren't for him... Would I still be here?