I really miss you. Like, a lot. Having someone with whom I can share my most annoying thoughts, someone whom isn't going to talk back or argue or tell me I'm wrong. Because, frankly, who the hell reads this anyway? I really should make more of a point to write in here. Firstly, my phone is a piece of shit. I think it would crash about three sentences in. Second, I have continuous access to a computer, but it's strictly for work purposes, therefore I have no time for you there. Home is busy, as always. I get my best thinking done... Hell, I'm pretty sure I never get any thinking done! I really should make more of an effort for me. But you know what? Everyone else comes first. And I honestly wouldn't have it any other way! My time for me will come one day. Right now just isn't the time. And I'm okay with that.
Every once in awhile, I admittedly have a mild break down. As does everyone at some point in their lives, I'm sure! But all I need to do is lock myself in my bedroom or spare room for an hour or so, relax, and remind myself that I'm needed. Remind myself why I'm needed. Remind myself who needs me. Usually, it works! It's when I have my mild break down at work... That blows chunks. I don't have time at work to have a mild break down! So, I find jobs to do in the warehouse that keep my mind and body occupied long enough that I calm down. I remind myself that I'm needed, why I'm needed, and who needs me.
Anyway, I don't want to sit here as make empty promises to you, telling you I will be back soon, because, truth is, I probably won't be. I will try to make more of an effort to write, that I can promise! I will post one more thing today - a song. Not sure yet which song! It'll be a surprise to all of us :)
Au revoir, for now!
Xoxo
Shan
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