This whole positive outlook on life thing really fucking sucks right now.
All I want to do is scream out and yell that it's not fair! Nothing is fair! Life is not fair!!!
But I can't do that. Because then I would be breaking one of my New Years' resolutions, and it's January 6, and I haven't broken a resolution yet. I don't think, anyway. Let's recap:
1) Learn how to make bread. (Well, it's January 6, I haven't yet had time)
2) ------ (certain people in my life will know what this is....) (Okay, this one, probably won't happen...... One broken)
3) Lose another 20 pounds! (although, I'm not sure how well this will go, with all the homemade bread I'm going to be baking) (Already on the right track, three pounds down!!!)
4) Cross at least five things off my bucket list. (Not yet started)
5) Enjoy being happy! (Having quite the difficulty here....)
Okay, so I broke one resolution. But it's just one change in my life, so perhaps it will happen sometime in the next 360 days. Doubtful, but who knows?
I am not going to get into any details, because of the whole positive outlook thing, but I will say that... My bus ride this morning was agonizing. I'm such a baby and my heart is broken right now. And I cried on the bus. I know this is all for the best. I know that I am doing what is right. But if I'm doing what's right, why doesn't it feel right?
Anyway, a new positive outlook on life deserves a very happy song!!! Enjoy! :)
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