Why, why, why must it be so damn hard to forget??? I just want to get past the pain that you have inflicted on me in the past, and get over it, and get on with our lives! I just want to begin our happy lives together, but I cannot forget all the times you hurt me... I can't stop imagining you with another woman... I can't stop imagining how you must have made her feel...
I have forgiven you, 100%, for what you have done. I have. But why does forgiveness have to hurt so much? I feel as though, maybe, I shouldn't have forgiven you. I should have left; I should have ran away, and left you, and let you be with who you really, truly wanted to be with - because obviously I wasn't good enough. What has changed? The only thing that I can think is, "What if you do it again?" You say you won't... That it was a
one two fifty time thing... So if you've managed to do it so many times, why should I believe that you aren't going to do it again?
I guess I just have to take your word for it...
Except his word is crap and it is a mistake to marry somebody who does not have any respect for you or your child.
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